sigh...

i must be the most anti-social person around.

ec was asking me over to her place for a pre-vdae dinner. my first reaction was to turn it down. why? coz the other pple who were invited were her frens from uni. no-one else i know is gonna be there. she's really disappointed with me now and vows to make me go on my requisitory guilt-trip.

i know i'm anti-social. i'm no good with crowds. give me a nice intimate gathering with a couple of close friends and i'm more than willing to go. but put me in a room with a crowd of people i don't know and i'm really uncomfy. in fact i try to avoid such situations as much as possible.

that's one of the reasons why i hate orientations. making small talk and trying not to look like i'm desperately thinking of the next question to ask, in order to keep the conversation going. it's so unnatural to me.

i'm terrible with making friends... and not too good at keeping them...